Hashimoto’s – Fatigue Part I

January 15, 2014

in Hashimoto's, NaBloPoMo

b2ffa1ef83a08ee357ca4f21c5ad6ec3So I’m still working on this whole Hashimoto’s thing. I’m trying to learn without learning too much, if that makes any sense. I think it’s super easy to read articles and talk yourself into having those symptoms, so I’m sticking with the list of symptoms I gave my Doctor months ago and trying not to creating new ones.

When I said I was relieved after being diagnosed, I meant it. And I still am relieved. Years of all these quirky little things going wrong, nagging pain, unparalleled fatigue, weight gain, vertigo, stomach issues…I could go on and on, but I’m sticking to my list like I said I would. Having a diagnosis kind of gives everything a name and now things that didn’t add up make sense.

For example, this summer I went to Urgent Care for painful swelling in my foot. It hurt bad. It was horribly uncomfortable and nothing seemed to dull the pain. The Doctor said I had broken a bone in my foot that had mostly healed. He told me to ice it and wear real shoes.  I did all that, but it still hurt. Not constantly hurt, but it would flare up and hurt like a son of a bitch and then the next day feel okay. Since there wasn’t anything I could medically do, I just learned to live with it. Now it makes sense. Hashimoto’s patients have a tendency to have arthritis in the small bones of their feet and hands.

Problem solved.

Does it hurt less now that I know what’s causing it? No. It’s still annoying and painful and makes me miserable BUT at least I can say I have arthritis in my foot instead of saying I don’t know what the fucks wrong with it.

I say the same thing about being tired. I used to wonder why I was always so exhausted. I’d sleep well and wake up just as tired as I was when I went to bed. And as the day dragged on I could feel my energy level plummet to the point of being both mentally and physically exhausted. I used to look at people who said they were tired but still functioning and wonder to myself “How are they still doing that?” They were jumping around and going to the grocery store while I was sitting on the couch with my bladder about to burst because I didn’t have it in me to get up and pee. Going out at night took planning, staying out late put me on the couch the entire next day and sitting in meetings would lead to a two hour nap when I got home. I blamed it on being lazy, old, fat and hormonal.

And just because I didn’t mention it before (but I probably did because I have no filters or boundaries) doesn’t mean that it’s a new symptom or one that suddenly became worse or something I can complain about or use as an excuse. Again, it just gave it a name. Before I thought it was me being a big, whiny baby. Now I know it wasn’t just something made up in my head and that I’m not going crazy. When I am tired. I am very tired. More so than the lady still doing jumping jacks at the grocery store. Now my tiredness not only has a name, it also has a reason. It’s a symptom, not a byproduct. And I need to manage it, just like Diabetics need to manage insulin, I need to manage my energy.

That’s what I’m working on now. Managing symptoms and finding resolutions. Aside from giving up gluten, I’m giving myself nap time, going to bed earlier and not feeling guilty about being tired. I am (trying) to learn that resting now for 20 minutes will allow me to have 6 hours of energy later, not vice versa. I’m going to alleviate stress and try not to be so busy, busy, busy. That means giving up some of my volunteering (although I won’t quit, I’ll wait until my term runs out) and scheduling more down time. The minutes I rest now will make a huge difference later in my life. That kinda makes it all worth it.

Want to know more? This gal writes a hilariously funny blog about all things including life with Hashimoto’s. Check it out MYLIFESUCKERS.

1 Laurel January 16, 2014 at 7:38 am

Well said AND Yes, maybe say No to a few things-it’s hard but the payoff is huge! Hugs

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